A Ghost of My Past

sometimes in order to appreciate where you are now, you have to remember where you used to be.

I found this picture on ashlee's facebook the other day & just about died.

The one in the maroon sweater is from December.

The one in the scarf is from last week.

 I was so fat.

I have come so far and have worked incredibly hard.

Some days, it's harder than others. However, pictures like this one remind me why I work my butt off. I will never be like that again. EVER.

Afternoons

I came home from college today and decided to work out in my sports bra and listen to

madonna way too loudly.

I'm really cool these days.

Change #1

Yes...I dyed my hair. It's dark brown and rather dramatic. It was on a whim and I like it.

I am aware that some do not enjoy this look as much as I do. That's too bad. It's my hair, get over it and keep your comments to yourself. I never tell you when I don't like your hair, so let's be even. 

It's a new year and I needed a change. There will be more to follow I promise. But here's change #1.

And here's to a new year full of change. 

Resolutions

go ahead and judge me all you want.

this is something I have to do.

for me.

next time I am on a beach...I will be wearing a little number similar to this.

as for now...I will be sweating, dieting, and drinking more water than I should.

this is going to happen.

One. Nine.

Yesterday was my birthday and it was a very good day indeed.
I was spoiled rotten.
When I got to work my desk was decorated and completely trashed. (kind of like what kids in jr high do to your locker for your birthday....but so much cooler when it's in your cubical).
Janna surprised me with pink flowers to accompany my graduation plant. She said I had done a good job taking care of the other plant so it was time to get another...but honestly, we all know she's the reason my plants stay alive. But my new flowers are so pretty :)
Kristin made me these cute little wooden Christmas trees for my soon-to-be newly wed apt...haha they are adorable. We'll be dirt poor, but at least we'll have cute little trees for christmas.
Janna also baked me a jello cake with whipped cream frosting. It was do great. Who knew you could put jello in a cake?! Seriously. So great. I may have had a piece for breakfast today too.
I love my job.

Happy Birthday Hiphop. Classic

The sales team dumped their candy all over my desk. 

Yes, I sure did leave it all decorated all day.

The trees Kristin made for me.

My jello-whipped cream cake. Mmmmmm

My parents also spoiled me. Mom made my favorite pasta dinner. Yes, I still smell like garlic. Not like I'm kissing anyone these days. Then we gathered in the living room for presents. I got my iPhone for my birthday...but also got tons if make up and accessories - basically kayla's favorite things, is what I got. My family truly goes all out on birthdays, and I love it :)

I had such a great day and am so blessed to have so many people in my life that love me and car about me.

Oh and something else great about this birthday? It's the last one before cam comes home. I have this strange feeling that next year he'll be giving me a little box with contents that rhyme with sing. And I can not wait.

Hair

I want, no no...i NEED long hair.
It has been 14 months since Cameron left, and my hair has not grown. At all.
I know the issues. I straighten my hair until it breaks. I curl my hair like it's going out of style. And I tease it.
I'm mean to it, I know. So starting today, I'll be making some changes.
3 biotin pills a day.
Minimal straightening (yes, I will be rocking my nasty, natural curls)
Mane n' Tail shampoo.
and the worst....no teasing. I will be a shame to Utah County.
I'm hoping and praying this works. I want to be absolutely beautiful when cam comes home...

If anyone else out there has ANY hair-growing tips, lemme know. PLEASEEEEEE

I'm desperate

Keep Calm

I think it has something to do with Pinterest (again....)
 but I have a new found love for those world war two propaganda type posters.
   You know, the one's that say keep calm, ect?
      I purchased one on saturday. It's tiffany box blue and simply states: Keep Calm and Carry On. Something
        that I most definetly need to become better at. I do however love this one:



I tried to purchase this one, but they are not as abundant when for

sale, as they are on pinterest. Tonight, however, I found my

new favorite one...So the hunt to purchase this one

is on.

Incase you were wondering, this is definetly on my christmas list.

Waterfall Braid

Yes I am a pinterest addict

and yes, this is my attempt at a waterfall braid.

Search it on pinterest...

Not too bad for a first timer, huh? 

In Case You Ever Wondered

For those of you who know me well, you know how much I absolutely love my job. I am so blessed. I began working at SOS Staffing in May, just before I graduated. I had worked at the bowling alley for two years, and was ready to progress in my work. I am the marketing assisant, and am constantly learning new things. Because of my wonderful job I have been able to purchase my own car and pay for my car insurance. I buy my own clothes and feel as those I'm taking steps to be independent. However, being able to be independent is not the biggest reason I love my job. Rather, it's the people I spend my time with. When you have a set working schedule you really become close to those you work with and work for. The immediate group I work with are the best. They are so witty and caring. Work truly is fun. I laugh my head off everyday! But today I realized just how great the presidents of my company are.
 A little over a week ago my uncle chris passed away. In a lot of ways, it is a blessing for him. He was in a very horrible car wreck when I was little and became a quad, meaning he had no use of or feeling in his legs or arms, through the years his bodily hardships have gotten worse and worse. He had his legs amputated and constantly was in the hospital. He became very sick and passed away peacefully. He now is in a much happier place and I hope, is much happier. Today my aunt (his wife) received flowers from JoAnn, Kevin, and the SOS Family in condolences of our loss. JoAnn is the CEO and President of SOS and Kevin is the CFO of SOS. They got word of my families' hardship and took the iniative to send flowers to someone they've never met, in Detroit. How amazing is that? I seriously can not comprehend how amazingly caring the company I work for is. They truly treat their employees so well and I am so blessed to have the opportunity to work for such a great company. So in case anyone ever wondered why I love my job....there you have it.

Take Me

my favorite place.

there is nothing better than sitting in the sand whilst the ocean tide gently creeps near you.

swimming is also a must.

salt water is the cure for acne, dry hair, and a bad day. trust me.

you know when you are doing one of those silly relaxation things and you are supposed to go to your happy place? this is mine.

Equinox

People, it's here. Fall is here. Sketchy weather. Boots. Scarves. And the begining of the holiday season.

Hey, it's my blog. I can post pictures of my self if I want.

Happy Fall!