October 20, 2012

Two years ago TODAY Cameron entered the MTC.

 It seems like a life time ago and at the same time, it feels like it was just yesterday.

As of today, I can officially say I did it. I waited two full years for my missionary. 

I beat the odds and kept my promise. 

Yesterday, I got my last letter from Cameron. In it he said,

 "Kayla, I am so grateful you kept your promise to me, and now, it's time for me to keep mine." 

I can not wait.

See you in three days Cam. 

Cheesy

Here's something a little cheesy, but totally cute! Maybe my cute friends with missionaries will enjoy this:

I thought of you today,

But that is nothing new.

I thought about you yesterday

& days before that too.

I think of you in silence,

I often speak your name.

All I have are letters & a 

picture in a frame.

Your memory's a keepsake

from which I'll never part.

God has you on a mission,

I have you in my heart.

Ten Days Out

Ten days. I'm not sure I ever really thought I'd get here.
Starting with 730 days, you'd think ten days left would be a piece of cake.
Wrong. But not in a bad way. I just want him to be here already.
I'm making plans and talking as if he's home, then I remember, "oh not yet."
This week I got my airport out fit and got my hair all nice and colored.
I just have to make it through this week.
I basically feel like I am about to throw up at any point. Like right now.
Next Saturday I'm running a half marathon, that should be interesting. It'll also be cameron's "official" two year mark. Too bad he's not coming home until Tuesday.
I have his itenery. He gets into SLC at 1:05 pm on October 23.
Kristin is helping me make posters, just like she helped me pick out my airport outfit. I guess she's trying to earn her keep as "favorite bridesmaid."
I'm nervous, and at the same time, completely at peace.
We have our fist date planned. A trip up to our favorite lake. It should be a fall wonderland.
Also, I forgot how to kiss. I'm hoping he has too. Awkward kissing, here we come!

And that is a enough rambling for today.


oh wait, we're going to hawaii in 35 days.

The Dilemma

My "check tire pressure" light came on in my car this week. 

The dilemma? Do I go add air to them, or wait two weeks for my manly boyfriend to do it?

I choose the latter.

Number One On the Countdown

holy freak. 

6, 5, 4 weeks

Oh ya, remember that countdown I was going to do? you know, the 15 reasons I am waiting 15 more weeks? Well, I pretty much have given up on blogging, until tonight. So instead of doing my silly countdown I am just going to let it out.

 I'm pretty much scared out of my mind.

30 days left, and I am so happy to see him again. However, in the back of my head is that little negativity that asks, "what if it doesn't work out. What if you spent two years of your life waiting for a boy who won't like you anymore?" What if?

The thought completely torments me, but is a valid fear. This is why other girls date and don't "put all their eggs in one basket." This is why people don't wait. I can't even remember what his voice sounds like or how much taller than me he is in person, and yet, I'm planning on marring him in the spring. I haven't been on a date since last september, and it was an awful date at that. I don't remember how to kiss or even "go on a date." All I remember is "waiting for a missionary. for cameron." I'm scared to have to relearn everything.

Now, let's be honest....It's going to take work. I think we both understand that. We are going to have to re-date one another and get to know each other again. Two years is a long time, and a lot has happened these past two years in both of our lives. I believe however, through all this doubt and fear and all the hard work that it is going to take, that we are going to make it. We are going to get engaged, get married, and start our life together. It's not going to be easy, but it will be worth it.

I signed up for this. I knew what I was getting into and I promised to wait. I have been so blessed by this choice and am so proud of my missionary. It has been a long road and I'm sure the next 30 days will be no exception. But we are going to do this. We are going to be that 1% and I can't wait.

I love you babes and although I am so scared of our next steps, I can't wait to take them with you.
Seen you soon.

A Monday Pick-Me-Up

perfect. 

After All This Time? Always.

After all this time?

"Kayla, I know you are the girl for me. There is no other person I have ever felt this way about, none else that I want to be with forever and take to the temple than you. I want to be your husband and I want you to be my wife. To wake up everyday next to you. Waiting two years has been hard, but it has prepared me too. It has made me into a better man, so I can be the best husband and father I can for you. I love you sweetheart. I am absolutely crazy about you and our life together. Soon all we have waited and worked for will be here and I will never leave your side again.

Eternally yours, your cam, your missionary, Elder Cameron Trujillo."

Always.  

The Best Call Yet

Yesterday (mother's day) I had the amazing opportunity to talk to my cameron for almost two hours. I could hardly sleep Saturday night because I was so excited. Church was great, but dragged because all I wanted was for it to be 5 pm. I went home and had dinner with my family then had to wait one more hour until I could go to Cameron's house. I basically paced back and forth and peed more times than anyone should. I was a nervous wreck and completely excited all at the same time.

Before his call, I was able to catch up with his family and had a great time with them...THEN the phone rang. LeAnn answered and I listened intently to hear his voice. After she talked to him it was Christopher's turn. They talked about working out and other "man" things. Then cameron's step dad, Rob talked to him. I continued to wait patiently and gratefully. Just as it was my turn, Christopher decided he had one more thing to tell Cameron. I was dying!! Then...it was my turn.

I got on and said hello and he did too. Then I just laughed and laughed because his entire family was staring at me. Our conversation was perfect. We laughed and talked and talked. Then his family left me at the house to go to a family party and we really talked. We made plans, not just "some day we'll..." plans, but real plans. What we are going to do for thanksgiving and then Christmas. What we are going to do the day he comes home and that night. Honestly...what do you do after you haven't seen someone for two years? Kiss, obviously ;) but what else? We basically just decided to see what the night brings and just spend every second in each other's arms, but if anyone has a fantastic idea I'd love to hear. We also talked about getting a family phone plan and a cat.

I told him, after a year in college, I finally understand why he gave me a promise ring before he left. Partially to symbolize our promise to one another, but more so to "mark his territory" so to speak. He laughed and confirmed my enlightenment. He told me that the CTR ring I gave him the day he left (to mark my territory) is faded and worn out. We both agreed it was time for new rings ;)

I made fun of his poor grammar in his letters and he told me he wouldn't change a thing about me. And that sums up our relationship perfectly. He was so fun to talk to and made me laugh all night. I never wanted that phone call to end. Sadly, at about 7:30 we had to hang up. He told me he loved me and is going to take me to the temple. I told him I loved him to and am waiting for that day ever so patiently. We cried when we had to say our final goodbyes, but were comforted with the knowledge that the next time we talk, it'll be in person.

I am so in love with that man and know that I made the right decision in deciding to wait for him. He is my absolute best friend and my idol. He challenges me to be better and loves me through my faults. And I love him more than I could ever express on a silly blog post. It was the best phone call we've ever had and I am so grateful for the sacrifice his family makes to allow us to talk. We are so close to the end and so close to the beginning of our life together. This has been an amazing opportunity for the both of us and has challenged our love in the best way. I am so completely blessed.

And bloggers...I have a release date. OCTOBER 23, 2012. Let the final countdown begin.

Perfection

Our phone call was perfect. I'll elaborate tomorrow. I am so in love.

Best Email Ending Ever

I love you and will talk to you next week.
love me.

Happy Anniversary

My missionary is a babe.

Such a baby.

Nice...hat?

The city of (brotherly) love. 

Happy anniversary to the greatest man I know. I am so blessed to have you in my life and I absolutely can not wait for October (but of course, I will). 

I love you so much Cameron and I can't wait to spend eternity with you. We have so much to look forward to and I know that all of our sacrifice will be worth it.

You are worth it. 

I love you and I will talk to you next week. 

Love always, me. 

Wisdom

"You will come to know that what appears to be a sacrifice
will prove instead to to be the greatest investment that you will ever make."

 President Gordon B. Hinkley    

200 Days

200 days until cameron comes home. This is no joke. When he left, on October 20, 2010,
there was 730 days until his return and now I am down to 200.

That is:
29 weeks
4 transfers
1 last phone call
1 summer
1 last birthday (his, September 19)
and then I get to be with my (return) missionary.

I can not even begin to describe how stinking excited I am.

Something strange, however....As excited as I am to see him and be with him, I truly can not imagine him being back. I can't imagine him not being a missionary. I'm so used to getting letters twice a week and an email on monday and  calling it good. It will be such a complete change that I can not even begin to process that in 200 days it will actually happen. I guess I don't have to worry too much yet. After all, I still have 200 days. ha.

After today I will be in the 100's and then after that I will be counting down from 100.
This is not even real.

One last quote to wrap up this ramble:
"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough."

Oh the Haters...

haters gonna hate and waiters gonna wait.

Proof

Proof. They do come home.

I love this family so much and look up to them in so many ways. And yes, this video did make me cry.

I'm so excited, I'm dying. I can't wait to pick up where we left off. 

Lucky Number Seven

Seven months left.

I am so absolutely ready to have my boyfriend back and start the next chapter of our lives. 

We have made it so far and I have faith that everything will happen as it's supposed to. 

I am in love and yes, he is real. 

Each day is one less and I am absolutely dying to be with him. Truly. 

Seriously...

What I wouldn't give for a good long smooch right now. Anyone, anyone? This sucks.

SEVEN more fast sundays!

Happy P-Day! Who would have thought I'd love mondays so much? Not me...but I seriously look forward to them everyweek these days. (I can't wait until I can hate mondays like a normal person again).
Why do I love them so much? Oh, because I get emails like this:

Hello Ms. Kayla :-)
Haha I'm doing well! Just barely had an interesting encounter with a drunk man in the library, but that's what you get for public computers. He came in and stood right beside me and just yelled profanities and nothing in particular. Kinda scary haha. He was drunk as a skunk, smelt so bad. The staff chased him out, but man my heart sure raced for a minute haha. Trying to be a good little missionary here :-) haha.
But besides that excitement, all is well for sure!! :-) Im writing my sweetheart :-) How could I not be doing well?? :-) I love you cutie! And im happy to hear you are doing well!! :-) Haha and believe it or not its snowing here right now. I am looking out the window at it. I don't get it. Its hot in December and snowy in March. It wont stick too much. Geez it sounds like you got a lot of it!! Did you build a snow man? You could have put my name tag on him haha :-) Please be safe out there ok? I know you will do fine, but other people are nuts. Just stay safe till I come home to you ok? :-) Even then you aren't allowed to get hurt haha :-)
Skiing! Hmmmm I think I could learn that :-) To be 100% honest i've always kinda wanted to, but nobody in my family does and so it just never happened. Chris tried snowboarding once, I wasn't much of a skateboarder so I dont think i'd like snowboarding. Long boarding is fun though :-) Haha so yes i'll let you teach me. I agree it would be fun with you :-) Id rather be with you than jeff anyways, (dont tell him I said that haha) I love you :-) So there. I cant wait to do so many things with you babe!! Its coming soon too! :-) I think about you and how our life is going to be, and I cant help but get all excited and smile constantly :-):-) I know its going to be AMAZING!! :-) And ps your pics from the trip are cute!! :-) You are so pretty Kayla!!! Mmmm. I am one very lucky man :-)
And you can be as excited as you want!! (it makes me feel good that you are as excited as i am! :-)) I cant believe how fast time is going these days! SEVEN more fast sundays!! Haha it sounds so weird to me, like I cant believe that's where its at! You aren't silly at all, I cant wait to spend my life with you again either Kayla :-) believe me!! I sure love you too sweetie :-) With all my heart. I'll be home before ya know it! In fact it wont be long before my mom gets my flight itinerary! They send it out early so people can arrange schedules and so cute girlfriends can get nostalgic :-) haha. I don't mind your sweetness at all hun. To me that's what it is :-)
Aww little primary kids. I knew you'd love that calling! :-) Its amazing how smart they are right? We have this little girl here in our ward that learns a scripture almost weekly. Its awesome! I cant wait until our kids are the ones up on the stage in their program, or the ones being baptized :-) Or when i get to bless them :-) So much fun awaits in the future :-) So much still yet to experience. I know we will have the gospel centered home we never had as kids. Exactly like you described :-) Family prayer and scripture study and temple trips. Coming from our background to have our kids prepare to go on missions and marry in the temple, what greater blessing is there?? :-)
Have an amazing week ok? And i'll do the same :-) I love you Kayla. Be safe and soon our tomorrows will be today :-) But no matter what, as long as I have you EVERYDAY will be a good day :-)

Love you more, your cam, your missionary, Elder Cameron Trujillo :-)


Who wouldn't love getting an email like that everyweek? This boy is a keeper. He makes me laugh, smile, and look forward to our future. He is such a great missionary and I am so proud of him. I love my elder. (But we are getting REALLY excited for the fall...)

Those Pants (Cameron Style)

See those pants that Cameron is sporting? Today he informed me that when he tried those pants on the other day they didn't fit. He is upset...Secretly, I am ecstatic.

The whole time he has been gone I have been wishing he would gain like 20 or 30 pounds. He could use it :)

Looks like things are going my way.