I can not tell you how happy I am that it is fall...Here is a little countdown of good things coming to me this season.
26 days: SOJO half marathon. I can't wait until I can sleep in on Saturday's and not have to run ten miles. How will I ever train for a full marathon?
29 days: missionary comes home
30 days: first date with cameron. We are taking a road trip up American Fork Canyon and having a picnic at the top. It will be late October and absolutely goregous (and probably freezing). We are going to talk and cuddle all day.
37 days: Halloween. Cameron, Dad, and I will be passing out candy to trick-or-treaters and eating pizza. Sounds like a perfect night.
43 days: election day. All the craziness of my internship will finally be over. And we will have a new president (or so I hope). I can't wait to spend the night watching the election returns all dressed up and fancy. I love the political life.
47 days: road trip to Cameron's grandma & grandpa's property (maybe. I think it'll be this weekend)
54 days: Mayday Parade concert.
55 days: MAUI. MAUI. MAUI. with cameron, my family, and my amazing extended family. It's going to be the best vacation ever.
59 days: Thanksgiving. With cameron. and all my lovely family.
I'll stop here. There's more good to come in december and hopefully an official proposal somewhere in here. This girl is excited about the future and happy it's finally here.
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24 September 2012
23 September 2012
6, 5, 4 weeks
Oh ya, remember that countdown I was going to do? you know, the 15 reasons I am waiting 15 more weeks? Well, I pretty much have given up on blogging, until tonight. So instead of doing my silly countdown I am just going to let it out.
I'm pretty much scared out of my mind.
30 days left, and I am so happy to see him again. However, in the back of my head is that little negativity that asks, "what if it doesn't work out. What if you spent two years of your life waiting for a boy who won't like you anymore?" What if?
The thought completely torments me, but is a valid fear. This is why other girls date and don't "put all their eggs in one basket." This is why people don't wait. I can't even remember what his voice sounds like or how much taller than me he is in person, and yet, I'm planning on marring him in the spring. I haven't been on a date since last september, and it was an awful date at that. I don't remember how to kiss or even "go on a date." All I remember is "waiting for a missionary. for cameron." I'm scared to have to relearn everything.
Now, let's be honest....It's going to take work. I think we both understand that. We are going to have to re-date one another and get to know each other again. Two years is a long time, and a lot has happened these past two years in both of our lives. I believe however, through all this doubt and fear and all the hard work that it is going to take, that we are going to make it. We are going to get engaged, get married, and start our life together. It's not going to be easy, but it will be worth it.
I signed up for this. I knew what I was getting into and I promised to wait. I have been so blessed by this choice and am so proud of my missionary. It has been a long road and I'm sure the next 30 days will be no exception. But we are going to do this. We are going to be that 1% and I can't wait.
I love you babes and although I am so scared of our next steps, I can't wait to take them with you.
Seen you soon.
I'm pretty much scared out of my mind.
30 days left, and I am so happy to see him again. However, in the back of my head is that little negativity that asks, "what if it doesn't work out. What if you spent two years of your life waiting for a boy who won't like you anymore?" What if?
The thought completely torments me, but is a valid fear. This is why other girls date and don't "put all their eggs in one basket." This is why people don't wait. I can't even remember what his voice sounds like or how much taller than me he is in person, and yet, I'm planning on marring him in the spring. I haven't been on a date since last september, and it was an awful date at that. I don't remember how to kiss or even "go on a date." All I remember is "waiting for a missionary. for cameron." I'm scared to have to relearn everything.
Now, let's be honest....It's going to take work. I think we both understand that. We are going to have to re-date one another and get to know each other again. Two years is a long time, and a lot has happened these past two years in both of our lives. I believe however, through all this doubt and fear and all the hard work that it is going to take, that we are going to make it. We are going to get engaged, get married, and start our life together. It's not going to be easy, but it will be worth it.
I signed up for this. I knew what I was getting into and I promised to wait. I have been so blessed by this choice and am so proud of my missionary. It has been a long road and I'm sure the next 30 days will be no exception. But we are going to do this. We are going to be that 1% and I can't wait.
I love you babes and although I am so scared of our next steps, I can't wait to take them with you.
Seen you soon.
12 August 2012
10 weeks - a little on the personal side
only 10 more weeks. 10. I'm not sure what to do with myself at this point...and I know that feeling of nervousness and excitement will only increase.
this week's reason I am waiting 15 more weeks is because of his dedication to me and to us. In July, two years ago, cameron took me on the most special date I have ever been on. We went up to the canyon and had a fire. I guess that seems like a pretty standard date....but half way through our fire cameron wrapped his arms around me and told me the sweetest things I've ever heard...then he promised me that if I wait for him, he will take me to the temple and marry me forever. Then he pulled out the prettiest ring and slipped it on my finger. After that...I was officially waiting for my cameron.
There has been lots of different parts of my waiting experience. Right after cameron left, (from october 2010 up until march 2011) I was in a sorts of depression. Not really depression, just true sadness because I had lost my best friend and the idea of two years scared me to pieces. I stayed home a lot and cried even more. It was very rough. That summer was better. I was more myself, and more comfortable with the idea of being 'alone' for two years and waiting. The fall brought a new school and a new chapter in my life...with lots of new emotions. My friends all moved away for school and I stayed home, to commute to my lovely school and (in all honesty) save money and prepare to be married. I bought a car and got (what I call) a grown up job. It was a plan that I was completely happy with until it began. When my friends moved away and left me, I began to feel resentment towards cameron and myself. Not that he had ever ever ever told me to stay home and wait, but because I had made decisions for 'us' and 'us' wasn't real, so to speak. That was probably the hardest time for me. I moved my ring to my thumb finger and began to be complacent about cameron and about our relationship. Not because I didn't love him, but because it is beyond words hard to love someone you never see or talk to. It is so very hard.
Our christmas conversation was great, but not magical. And I started to think seriously that cameron and I weren't going to last. We had made it a year and had a good run...but regardless of my doubts, I kept my ring on and continued to pray for us. From January to April I lost 40 pounds, and with it, all doubt I had about us and about my life. I know that may seem corny, but it's not. It truly made my life so much happier and my relationship with cameron so much happier. I was more proud of who I was and who I was to him. I was proud to have him tell me I'm beautiful or attractive, because, for the first time in our entire relationship, I believed it. It's not something easy to understand, and if you've never been overweight you don't know what a major impact it has on such basic aspects of your life. The change of mind I gained when I lost the weight this spring gave me the courage to re-acess my relationship and goals with cameron. After much praying and pondering I realized what I already knew. Cameron is the best man I know, and I love him deeply. I want nothing more than to be sealed to him and raise a family together. In a sense, I fell in love with him all over again. He is my best friend and although I had forgotten there for a while, I know I am blessed to have this opportunity to wait for him. My reward, in october, will make all the sadness and insecurity seem silly.
Now, my reason for still waiting...although for some months I had forgotten, cameron never did. And his commitment to me never wavered. He has sent me at least one letter and two emails every week since he left. Most weeks I get two letters. One on wednesday and one on friday and email on monday. He has always told me that he wants the time I go without hearing him tell me he loves me to be short, so he plans the days to send his letters accordingly.
Cameron has always been ideal and understanding, through all this. And although it took some self discovery and change on my part I know that we are both where we are supposed to be. This was the right choice for me and I am humbled at how blessed I am to be given the opportunity to wait for such a valiant man.
this week's reason I am waiting 15 more weeks is because of his dedication to me and to us. In July, two years ago, cameron took me on the most special date I have ever been on. We went up to the canyon and had a fire. I guess that seems like a pretty standard date....but half way through our fire cameron wrapped his arms around me and told me the sweetest things I've ever heard...then he promised me that if I wait for him, he will take me to the temple and marry me forever. Then he pulled out the prettiest ring and slipped it on my finger. After that...I was officially waiting for my cameron.
There has been lots of different parts of my waiting experience. Right after cameron left, (from october 2010 up until march 2011) I was in a sorts of depression. Not really depression, just true sadness because I had lost my best friend and the idea of two years scared me to pieces. I stayed home a lot and cried even more. It was very rough. That summer was better. I was more myself, and more comfortable with the idea of being 'alone' for two years and waiting. The fall brought a new school and a new chapter in my life...with lots of new emotions. My friends all moved away for school and I stayed home, to commute to my lovely school and (in all honesty) save money and prepare to be married. I bought a car and got (what I call) a grown up job. It was a plan that I was completely happy with until it began. When my friends moved away and left me, I began to feel resentment towards cameron and myself. Not that he had ever ever ever told me to stay home and wait, but because I had made decisions for 'us' and 'us' wasn't real, so to speak. That was probably the hardest time for me. I moved my ring to my thumb finger and began to be complacent about cameron and about our relationship. Not because I didn't love him, but because it is beyond words hard to love someone you never see or talk to. It is so very hard.
Our christmas conversation was great, but not magical. And I started to think seriously that cameron and I weren't going to last. We had made it a year and had a good run...but regardless of my doubts, I kept my ring on and continued to pray for us. From January to April I lost 40 pounds, and with it, all doubt I had about us and about my life. I know that may seem corny, but it's not. It truly made my life so much happier and my relationship with cameron so much happier. I was more proud of who I was and who I was to him. I was proud to have him tell me I'm beautiful or attractive, because, for the first time in our entire relationship, I believed it. It's not something easy to understand, and if you've never been overweight you don't know what a major impact it has on such basic aspects of your life. The change of mind I gained when I lost the weight this spring gave me the courage to re-acess my relationship and goals with cameron. After much praying and pondering I realized what I already knew. Cameron is the best man I know, and I love him deeply. I want nothing more than to be sealed to him and raise a family together. In a sense, I fell in love with him all over again. He is my best friend and although I had forgotten there for a while, I know I am blessed to have this opportunity to wait for him. My reward, in october, will make all the sadness and insecurity seem silly.
Now, my reason for still waiting...although for some months I had forgotten, cameron never did. And his commitment to me never wavered. He has sent me at least one letter and two emails every week since he left. Most weeks I get two letters. One on wednesday and one on friday and email on monday. He has always told me that he wants the time I go without hearing him tell me he loves me to be short, so he plans the days to send his letters accordingly.
Cameron has always been ideal and understanding, through all this. And although it took some self discovery and change on my part I know that we are both where we are supposed to be. This was the right choice for me and I am humbled at how blessed I am to be given the opportunity to wait for such a valiant man.
11 weeks
this is actually for last week...
My reason for waiting 11 more weeks for cameron involved a recent incident. I had a rough sunday and a rough week in general. I was super sad and needed to vent to my best friend...so I did. I told him my struggles and fears and told him how sad I was. His response was beyond words.
I will only show a small portion of what he said to me...But his response brought me to tears and made me so proud to call him mine. I am so very blessed to have such a wonderful man to support me in all aspects of life.
also, I know your Dad will come around and join the church eventually. Every person on this planet deserves a temple marriage, thats Heavenly Fathers plan, and wether or not it happens in this lifetime or the next, it will happen for those who are faithful. My Grandma was a member for almost 50 years before my Grandpa joined! She too joined when their kids were young and she probably felt the same things your Mom is feeling. My Grandma has one of the strongest testimonies i've ever seen, it had to be hard. But eventually an inspired home teacher who my Grandpa liked a lot struck a cord with him and he agreed to sincerely find out if the church was true. He was a nearly 60 year old convert! Today they are sealed and are both happy as ever. I have often thought about your Dad, and your family (in fact just last night I was :-)) and I do believe he will join the church before the next life. I do. Anything could be the turning point for your Dad, his daughter getting married in the temple, his son serving a mission, his grandkids being baptized, or even a home teacher that makes quick friends with him. Perhaps your Mom was meant to be with him so she could help him find the gospel, and you meant to help your Mom find it. No matter what though I know they will be sealed. Keep your chin up babe, everything will be alright :-) I wish i was there to hug you and wipe away your tears and then perhaps tell you some lame joke to make you smile haha :-) But dont fret, everything will be ok love :-) And know that i am definitely praying for them and you and patty. As part of my nightly prayers not a day has gone by the past two years that I haven't prayed for your Dad to join the church in the Lords due time. That day will come, i know so :-)
Don't apologize for telling me that hun, you know you can tell me anything. Its not good to bottle it all up and try to tough it out. Whenever you want to vent you know I will forever be here for you :-) And I know you are always there for me. You are my best friend Kayla! :-) You have never whined to me haha dont worry. We all get overwhelmed at times, i am grateful that we have each other to comfort each other and be there for each other. And soon i'll be able to "kiss it better" when you have those hard days :-)
My reason for waiting 11 more weeks for cameron involved a recent incident. I had a rough sunday and a rough week in general. I was super sad and needed to vent to my best friend...so I did. I told him my struggles and fears and told him how sad I was. His response was beyond words.
I will only show a small portion of what he said to me...But his response brought me to tears and made me so proud to call him mine. I am so very blessed to have such a wonderful man to support me in all aspects of life.
also, I know your Dad will come around and join the church eventually. Every person on this planet deserves a temple marriage, thats Heavenly Fathers plan, and wether or not it happens in this lifetime or the next, it will happen for those who are faithful. My Grandma was a member for almost 50 years before my Grandpa joined! She too joined when their kids were young and she probably felt the same things your Mom is feeling. My Grandma has one of the strongest testimonies i've ever seen, it had to be hard. But eventually an inspired home teacher who my Grandpa liked a lot struck a cord with him and he agreed to sincerely find out if the church was true. He was a nearly 60 year old convert! Today they are sealed and are both happy as ever. I have often thought about your Dad, and your family (in fact just last night I was :-)) and I do believe he will join the church before the next life. I do. Anything could be the turning point for your Dad, his daughter getting married in the temple, his son serving a mission, his grandkids being baptized, or even a home teacher that makes quick friends with him. Perhaps your Mom was meant to be with him so she could help him find the gospel, and you meant to help your Mom find it. No matter what though I know they will be sealed. Keep your chin up babe, everything will be alright :-) I wish i was there to hug you and wipe away your tears and then perhaps tell you some lame joke to make you smile haha :-) But dont fret, everything will be ok love :-) And know that i am definitely praying for them and you and patty. As part of my nightly prayers not a day has gone by the past two years that I haven't prayed for your Dad to join the church in the Lords due time. That day will come, i know so :-)
Don't apologize for telling me that hun, you know you can tell me anything. Its not good to bottle it all up and try to tough it out. Whenever you want to vent you know I will forever be here for you :-) And I know you are always there for me. You are my best friend Kayla! :-) You have never whined to me haha dont worry. We all get overwhelmed at times, i am grateful that we have each other to comfort each other and be there for each other. And soon i'll be able to "kiss it better" when you have those hard days :-)
03 June 2012
After All This Time? Always.
After all this time?
"Kayla, I know you are the girl for me. There is no other person I have ever felt this way about, none else that I want to be with forever and take to the temple than you. I want to be your husband and I want you to be my wife. To wake up everyday next to you. Waiting two years has been hard, but it has prepared me too. It has made me into a better man, so I can be the best husband and father I can for you. I love you sweetheart. I am absolutely crazy about you and our life together. Soon all we have waited and worked for will be here and I will never leave your side again.
Eternally yours, your cam, your missionary, Elder Cameron Trujillo."
Always.
"Kayla, I know you are the girl for me. There is no other person I have ever felt this way about, none else that I want to be with forever and take to the temple than you. I want to be your husband and I want you to be my wife. To wake up everyday next to you. Waiting two years has been hard, but it has prepared me too. It has made me into a better man, so I can be the best husband and father I can for you. I love you sweetheart. I am absolutely crazy about you and our life together. Soon all we have waited and worked for will be here and I will never leave your side again.
Eternally yours, your cam, your missionary, Elder Cameron Trujillo."
Always.
20 May 2012
Pictures & a Quote to Sum Up My Life (lately)
pictures
I repainted my dresser last weekend & am completely in love.
This weekend I put the final touches on it.
I can't wait for my new bedroom and the tricks I have up my sleeve to make it stinking cool.
Blue dresser? Probably the coolest thing I've ever created.
Today (may 20th) is cameron's 19 month anniversary.
19! The thought completely blows my mind.
I have not seen that man in 19th months & it kind of seems like it was just yesterday.
I never thought I'd make it here, kind of like I still don't feel like I'll ever make it to October.
And yet, I will & it will be completely worth it.
Our countdown chain is down to four links. nbd.
And those girls? I super happy to have them back from school this summer.
They are the best friends, truly.
We made dinner this week & cuddled while watching the vow.
Last week we watched the lucky one.
Chick flicks make for good saturday nights.
They also visited me on a DI run.
It's so easy to have fun with them & I love it. I missed you both dearly.
Here's to great summer adventures that await us.
...and a quote
"You will come to know that what appears today to be a sacrifice will prove instead to be the greatest investment you ever make."
- Gordon B. Hinckley
14 May 2012
The Best Call Yet
Yesterday (mother's day) I had the amazing opportunity to talk to my cameron for almost two hours. I could hardly sleep Saturday night because I was so excited. Church was great, but dragged because all I wanted was for it to be 5 pm. I went home and had dinner with my family then had to wait one more hour until I could go to Cameron's house. I basically paced back and forth and peed more times than anyone should. I was a nervous wreck and completely excited all at the same time.
Before his call, I was able to catch up with his family and had a great time with them...THEN the phone rang. LeAnn answered and I listened intently to hear his voice. After she talked to him it was Christopher's turn. They talked about working out and other "man" things. Then cameron's step dad, Rob talked to him. I continued to wait patiently and gratefully. Just as it was my turn, Christopher decided he had one more thing to tell Cameron. I was dying!! Then...it was my turn.
I got on and said hello and he did too. Then I just laughed and laughed because his entire family was staring at me. Our conversation was perfect. We laughed and talked and talked. Then his family left me at the house to go to a family party and we really talked. We made plans, not just "some day we'll..." plans, but real plans. What we are going to do for thanksgiving and then Christmas. What we are going to do the day he comes home and that night. Honestly...what do you do after you haven't seen someone for two years? Kiss, obviously ;) but what else? We basically just decided to see what the night brings and just spend every second in each other's arms, but if anyone has a fantastic idea I'd love to hear. We also talked about getting a family phone plan and a cat.
I told him, after a year in college, I finally understand why he gave me a promise ring before he left. Partially to symbolize our promise to one another, but more so to "mark his territory" so to speak. He laughed and confirmed my enlightenment. He told me that the CTR ring I gave him the day he left (to mark my territory) is faded and worn out. We both agreed it was time for new rings ;)
I made fun of his poor grammar in his letters and he told me he wouldn't change a thing about me. And that sums up our relationship perfectly. He was so fun to talk to and made me laugh all night. I never wanted that phone call to end. Sadly, at about 7:30 we had to hang up. He told me he loved me and is going to take me to the temple. I told him I loved him to and am waiting for that day ever so patiently. We cried when we had to say our final goodbyes, but were comforted with the knowledge that the next time we talk, it'll be in person.
I am so in love with that man and know that I made the right decision in deciding to wait for him. He is my absolute best friend and my idol. He challenges me to be better and loves me through my faults. And I love him more than I could ever express on a silly blog post. It was the best phone call we've ever had and I am so grateful for the sacrifice his family makes to allow us to talk. We are so close to the end and so close to the beginning of our life together. This has been an amazing opportunity for the both of us and has challenged our love in the best way. I am so completely blessed.
And bloggers...I have a release date. OCTOBER 23, 2012. Let the final countdown begin.
Before his call, I was able to catch up with his family and had a great time with them...THEN the phone rang. LeAnn answered and I listened intently to hear his voice. After she talked to him it was Christopher's turn. They talked about working out and other "man" things. Then cameron's step dad, Rob talked to him. I continued to wait patiently and gratefully. Just as it was my turn, Christopher decided he had one more thing to tell Cameron. I was dying!! Then...it was my turn.
I got on and said hello and he did too. Then I just laughed and laughed because his entire family was staring at me. Our conversation was perfect. We laughed and talked and talked. Then his family left me at the house to go to a family party and we really talked. We made plans, not just "some day we'll..." plans, but real plans. What we are going to do for thanksgiving and then Christmas. What we are going to do the day he comes home and that night. Honestly...what do you do after you haven't seen someone for two years? Kiss, obviously ;) but what else? We basically just decided to see what the night brings and just spend every second in each other's arms, but if anyone has a fantastic idea I'd love to hear. We also talked about getting a family phone plan and a cat.
I told him, after a year in college, I finally understand why he gave me a promise ring before he left. Partially to symbolize our promise to one another, but more so to "mark his territory" so to speak. He laughed and confirmed my enlightenment. He told me that the CTR ring I gave him the day he left (to mark my territory) is faded and worn out. We both agreed it was time for new rings ;)
I made fun of his poor grammar in his letters and he told me he wouldn't change a thing about me. And that sums up our relationship perfectly. He was so fun to talk to and made me laugh all night. I never wanted that phone call to end. Sadly, at about 7:30 we had to hang up. He told me he loved me and is going to take me to the temple. I told him I loved him to and am waiting for that day ever so patiently. We cried when we had to say our final goodbyes, but were comforted with the knowledge that the next time we talk, it'll be in person.
I am so in love with that man and know that I made the right decision in deciding to wait for him. He is my absolute best friend and my idol. He challenges me to be better and loves me through my faults. And I love him more than I could ever express on a silly blog post. It was the best phone call we've ever had and I am so grateful for the sacrifice his family makes to allow us to talk. We are so close to the end and so close to the beginning of our life together. This has been an amazing opportunity for the both of us and has challenged our love in the best way. I am so completely blessed.
And bloggers...I have a release date. OCTOBER 23, 2012. Let the final countdown begin.
13 May 2012
06 May 2012
10 April 2012
P-Day is the Best Day
"Kayla, I'll never EVER EVER be too busy for you!!!! Don't think that!!!
And that my time is needed more somewhere else. I seriously wait and
wait for our emails and letters to each other :-) Like you don't even
know. No matter where life takes us babe, even here in Scranton PA
haha, you will be my first priority of time. You and our family will
ALWAYS come first. You mean more to me, are more special to me than
anything else!!! That will always be the case too. Trust me, I mean it
when I say I love you. Its not something I just throw around :-) Haha
my love for you in limitless, endless, boundless, its deepness know no
end. You are my sweetheart Kayla :-):-) Don't forget it"
"Love can't always be measured by how long you wait. It's about how well you under why you are waiting."
And that my time is needed more somewhere else. I seriously wait and
wait for our emails and letters to each other :-) Like you don't even
know. No matter where life takes us babe, even here in Scranton PA
haha, you will be my first priority of time. You and our family will
ALWAYS come first. You mean more to me, are more special to me than
anything else!!! That will always be the case too. Trust me, I mean it
when I say I love you. Its not something I just throw around :-) Haha
my love for you in limitless, endless, boundless, its deepness know no
end. You are my sweetheart Kayla :-):-) Don't forget it"
"Love can't always be measured by how long you wait. It's about how well you under why you are waiting."
29 March 2012
Thursdays
Happy letter day!
Two years ago I was completely infatuated with
the senior boy named Cameron...
not much has changed.
28 March 2012
18 March 2012
Lucky Number Seven
Seven months left.
I am so absolutely ready to have my boyfriend back and start the next chapter of our lives.
We have made it so far and I have faith that everything will happen as it's supposed to.
I am in love and yes, he is real.
Each day is one less and I am absolutely dying to be with him. Truly.
05 March 2012
SEVEN more fast sundays!
Happy P-Day! Who would have thought I'd love mondays so much? Not me...but I seriously look forward to them everyweek these days. (I can't wait until I can hate mondays like a normal person again).
Why do I love them so much? Oh, because I get emails like this:
Hello Ms. Kayla :-)
Haha I'm doing well! Just barely had an interesting encounter with a drunk man in the library, but that's what you get for public computers. He came in and stood right beside me and just yelled profanities and nothing in particular. Kinda scary haha. He was drunk as a skunk, smelt so bad. The staff chased him out, but man my heart sure raced for a minute haha. Trying to be a good little missionary here :-) haha.
But besides that excitement, all is well for sure!! :-) Im writing my sweetheart :-) How could I not be doing well?? :-) I love you cutie! And im happy to hear you are doing well!! :-) Haha and believe it or not its snowing here right now. I am looking out the window at it. I don't get it. Its hot in December and snowy in March. It wont stick too much. Geez it sounds like you got a lot of it!! Did you build a snow man? You could have put my name tag on him haha :-) Please be safe out there ok? I know you will do fine, but other people are nuts. Just stay safe till I come home to you ok? :-) Even then you aren't allowed to get hurt haha :-)
Skiing! Hmmmm I think I could learn that :-) To be 100% honest i've always kinda wanted to, but nobody in my family does and so it just never happened. Chris tried snowboarding once, I wasn't much of a skateboarder so I dont think i'd like snowboarding. Long boarding is fun though :-) Haha so yes i'll let you teach me. I agree it would be fun with you :-) Id rather be with you than jeff anyways, (dont tell him I said that haha) I love you :-) So there. I cant wait to do so many things with you babe!! Its coming soon too! :-) I think about you and how our life is going to be, and I cant help but get all excited and smile constantly :-):-) I know its going to be AMAZING!! :-) And ps your pics from the trip are cute!! :-) You are so pretty Kayla!!! Mmmm. I am one very lucky man :-)
And you can be as excited as you want!! (it makes me feel good that you are as excited as i am! :-)) I cant believe how fast time is going these days! SEVEN more fast sundays!! Haha it sounds so weird to me, like I cant believe that's where its at! You aren't silly at all, I cant wait to spend my life with you again either Kayla :-) believe me!! I sure love you too sweetie :-) With all my heart. I'll be home before ya know it! In fact it wont be long before my mom gets my flight itinerary! They send it out early so people can arrange schedules and so cute girlfriends can get nostalgic :-) haha. I don't mind your sweetness at all hun. To me that's what it is :-)
Aww little primary kids. I knew you'd love that calling! :-) Its amazing how smart they are right? We have this little girl here in our ward that learns a scripture almost weekly. Its awesome! I cant wait until our kids are the ones up on the stage in their program, or the ones being baptized :-) Or when i get to bless them :-) So much fun awaits in the future :-) So much still yet to experience. I know we will have the gospel centered home we never had as kids. Exactly like you described :-) Family prayer and scripture study and temple trips. Coming from our background to have our kids prepare to go on missions and marry in the temple, what greater blessing is there?? :-)
Have an amazing week ok? And i'll do the same :-) I love you Kayla. Be safe and soon our tomorrows will be today :-) But no matter what, as long as I have you EVERYDAY will be a good day :-)
Love you more, your cam, your missionary, Elder Cameron Trujillo :-)
Who wouldn't love getting an email like that everyweek? This boy is a keeper. He makes me laugh, smile, and look forward to our future. He is such a great missionary and I am so proud of him. I love my elder. (But we are getting REALLY excited for the fall...)
Why do I love them so much? Oh, because I get emails like this:
Hello Ms. Kayla :-)
Haha I'm doing well! Just barely had an interesting encounter with a drunk man in the library, but that's what you get for public computers. He came in and stood right beside me and just yelled profanities and nothing in particular. Kinda scary haha. He was drunk as a skunk, smelt so bad. The staff chased him out, but man my heart sure raced for a minute haha. Trying to be a good little missionary here :-) haha.
But besides that excitement, all is well for sure!! :-) Im writing my sweetheart :-) How could I not be doing well?? :-) I love you cutie! And im happy to hear you are doing well!! :-) Haha and believe it or not its snowing here right now. I am looking out the window at it. I don't get it. Its hot in December and snowy in March. It wont stick too much. Geez it sounds like you got a lot of it!! Did you build a snow man? You could have put my name tag on him haha :-) Please be safe out there ok? I know you will do fine, but other people are nuts. Just stay safe till I come home to you ok? :-) Even then you aren't allowed to get hurt haha :-)
Skiing! Hmmmm I think I could learn that :-) To be 100% honest i've always kinda wanted to, but nobody in my family does and so it just never happened. Chris tried snowboarding once, I wasn't much of a skateboarder so I dont think i'd like snowboarding. Long boarding is fun though :-) Haha so yes i'll let you teach me. I agree it would be fun with you :-) Id rather be with you than jeff anyways, (dont tell him I said that haha) I love you :-) So there. I cant wait to do so many things with you babe!! Its coming soon too! :-) I think about you and how our life is going to be, and I cant help but get all excited and smile constantly :-):-) I know its going to be AMAZING!! :-) And ps your pics from the trip are cute!! :-) You are so pretty Kayla!!! Mmmm. I am one very lucky man :-)
And you can be as excited as you want!! (it makes me feel good that you are as excited as i am! :-)) I cant believe how fast time is going these days! SEVEN more fast sundays!! Haha it sounds so weird to me, like I cant believe that's where its at! You aren't silly at all, I cant wait to spend my life with you again either Kayla :-) believe me!! I sure love you too sweetie :-) With all my heart. I'll be home before ya know it! In fact it wont be long before my mom gets my flight itinerary! They send it out early so people can arrange schedules and so cute girlfriends can get nostalgic :-) haha. I don't mind your sweetness at all hun. To me that's what it is :-)
Aww little primary kids. I knew you'd love that calling! :-) Its amazing how smart they are right? We have this little girl here in our ward that learns a scripture almost weekly. Its awesome! I cant wait until our kids are the ones up on the stage in their program, or the ones being baptized :-) Or when i get to bless them :-) So much fun awaits in the future :-) So much still yet to experience. I know we will have the gospel centered home we never had as kids. Exactly like you described :-) Family prayer and scripture study and temple trips. Coming from our background to have our kids prepare to go on missions and marry in the temple, what greater blessing is there?? :-)
Have an amazing week ok? And i'll do the same :-) I love you Kayla. Be safe and soon our tomorrows will be today :-) But no matter what, as long as I have you EVERYDAY will be a good day :-)
Love you more, your cam, your missionary, Elder Cameron Trujillo :-)
Who wouldn't love getting an email like that everyweek? This boy is a keeper. He makes me laugh, smile, and look forward to our future. He is such a great missionary and I am so proud of him. I love my elder. (But we are getting REALLY excited for the fall...)
25 February 2012
Email Dates
Once in a blue moon cameron and I get to have an email date.
An email date consists of me pressing the refresh button on my computer all day until cam finally emails "I'm on." Then we get to have forty five minutes of emailing back and forth. We mostly talk about how much we can't wait for october and how much we love another, but occasionally we talk politics, family, work, investigators, ect...
These dates are the best. I NEVER appreciated conversations with him like I do now. I would give anything to talk to him face to face while cuddling on the couch. anything... but these mornings where we can email back and forth and tease one another are a pretty good substitute. I love that boy.
"I wish we could do this all the time too! I love you too sweetie. Don't ever change your mind ok?
I'm cheered up now :-) I got to talk to you :-):-) I sure love you pretty girl :-) And mothers day will be here quick! And October right after :-)
Love you too baby! :-)"
He has a thing for smiley faces and sure knows how to make me feel special.
I love (elder) Cameron Trujillo.
An email date consists of me pressing the refresh button on my computer all day until cam finally emails "I'm on." Then we get to have forty five minutes of emailing back and forth. We mostly talk about how much we can't wait for october and how much we love another, but occasionally we talk politics, family, work, investigators, ect...
These dates are the best. I NEVER appreciated conversations with him like I do now. I would give anything to talk to him face to face while cuddling on the couch. anything... but these mornings where we can email back and forth and tease one another are a pretty good substitute. I love that boy.
"I wish we could do this all the time too! I love you too sweetie. Don't ever change your mind ok?
I'm cheered up now :-) I got to talk to you :-):-) I sure love you pretty girl :-) And mothers day will be here quick! And October right after :-)
Love you too baby! :-)"
He has a thing for smiley faces and sure knows how to make me feel special.
I love (elder) Cameron Trujillo.
20 February 2012
This One's For Lex
As the cliche quote that fits this situation most perfectly goes "No one ever said it would be easy, only that it would be worth it."
Lex, some days will be hard. But I'm not going to dwell on that. It will be worth it. I can promise you that.
There is no feeling like the one that accompanies a letter in the mail box. Or better yet, an envelope full of pictures. There is nothing like knowing the man you love more than anything and want to spend forever with is changing people's lives. People will tell you that you can't. They will insist that he will change and will remind you that two years is a long time (as if we could forget). They will be negative, but they will never have the experiences you and josh will have. They will never have the kind of love that comes from being apart or the appreciation a simple letter teaches. They will never be challenged in the way that you will be, and they will never have the blessings that come from those challenges. Lex, I promise you waiting will be worth it. I will be here for you every step of the way, as will Josh, your family, and of course, our savior.
True love is when two people put God before themselves. It is without a doubt the greatest sacrifice I have made thus far in my life, but I am so blessed and so loved because of it.
Remember how blessed you are to have a love worth missing. I love you girl and I know you can do this.
Lex, some days will be hard. But I'm not going to dwell on that. It will be worth it. I can promise you that.
There is no feeling like the one that accompanies a letter in the mail box. Or better yet, an envelope full of pictures. There is nothing like knowing the man you love more than anything and want to spend forever with is changing people's lives. People will tell you that you can't. They will insist that he will change and will remind you that two years is a long time (as if we could forget). They will be negative, but they will never have the experiences you and josh will have. They will never have the kind of love that comes from being apart or the appreciation a simple letter teaches. They will never be challenged in the way that you will be, and they will never have the blessings that come from those challenges. Lex, I promise you waiting will be worth it. I will be here for you every step of the way, as will Josh, your family, and of course, our savior.
True love is when two people put God before themselves. It is without a doubt the greatest sacrifice I have made thus far in my life, but I am so blessed and so loved because of it.
Remember how blessed you are to have a love worth missing. I love you girl and I know you can do this.
16 February 2012
V-Day Photos
I took some {posed} pictures for cameron to send with his valentine's package.
The great thing about having a missionary? You can pick and choose what pictures he sees of you.
These are the pictures he saw.
14 February 2012
Valentine Love
His Tag
and Beautiful Flowers
He is across the country....yet he still manages to send me flowers. Impressive? Very. He is the best and I am so very blessed to have his love. In the three valentines we have known one another he has gotten me flowers every year. Mind you he's been gone for two. A boy that gets you flowers? Marry him. That's what I'm going to do.
Happy Valentine's Cameron. I can't wait to spend it with you next year...Infact, I can't wait for every day with you.
I love you. Love, me.
07 February 2012
Because Some Days are Still Hard
I have a major case of IBS right now.
For those of you who don't know, IBS is a term used by MG's (missionary girlfriends) that stands for Imaginary Boyfriend Syndrome. Laugh all you want, but I promise you this is a real feeling and really sucks. Throughout waiting there are ups and downs...anyone could guess that. But IBS is worse. I can't describe it, but I'm so sad and so angry. I bawled this afternoon. I needed to. I write to this boy each week and get letters from him, but I don't remember what his hugs feel like. I don't remember how it feels to have him look me in the eyes. I don't even remember how it feels to talk to him face to face. I am so jealous that I have no one to take me on dates and tell me I look pretty. I have no one to text me in the morning and remind me that things will get better. That "no one" is across the country and can't even know that I am so sad, because he needs to focus. 16 months in...you think I'd be fine, but some days are still hard.
Yes, I am being whiny and pathetic today. But it's that kind of day.
For those of you who don't know, IBS is a term used by MG's (missionary girlfriends) that stands for Imaginary Boyfriend Syndrome. Laugh all you want, but I promise you this is a real feeling and really sucks. Throughout waiting there are ups and downs...anyone could guess that. But IBS is worse. I can't describe it, but I'm so sad and so angry. I bawled this afternoon. I needed to. I write to this boy each week and get letters from him, but I don't remember what his hugs feel like. I don't remember how it feels to have him look me in the eyes. I don't even remember how it feels to talk to him face to face. I am so jealous that I have no one to take me on dates and tell me I look pretty. I have no one to text me in the morning and remind me that things will get better. That "no one" is across the country and can't even know that I am so sad, because he needs to focus. 16 months in...you think I'd be fine, but some days are still hard.
Yes, I am being whiny and pathetic today. But it's that kind of day.
01 February 2012
And You Thought You Had It Rough
...I haven't kissed a boy in 16 months. See, now all your problems seem minute.
I better get one darn good kiss in october.
I better get one darn good kiss in october.
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